Roxy is in the hospital. She went there this morning around 8 o'clock.
She has Parvovirus, a potentially lethal virus.
I just hope I get to see her one more time.

Well, you guys, my dog is sick.

She is throwing up and has diarrhea.

We took her to the hospital, but the clinic isn't open.

If we wanted to make it an emergency, then it would cost 90 dollars, then another 50 on top of that for the exam for Parvo, THEN, if she tests posotive, another 2500 for hospitalization...

Do you know what parvo is?

Parvovirus is a viral disease of dogs. It affects puppies much more frequently than it affects adult dogs. The virus likes to grow in rapidly dividing cells. The intestinal lining has the biggest concentration of rapidly dividing cells in a puppy's body. The virus attacks and kills these cells, causing diarrhea (often bloody), depression and suppression of white blood cells -- which come from another group of rapidly dividing cells. In very young puppies it can infect the heart muscle and lead to "sudden" death. 

I really hope nothing is wrong with her.

Oh, she just threw up...

Well I spent my last days of the summer in California at Ricky's new house in Victorville.

They picked me up around 3:30, at the corner of my house. Ivonne was oh so kind enough to walk me there.

After 30 minutes or so of driving, we ended up at Chilis, where I ordered broccoli and cheese.

Chris, Ricky's brother, found out about my "problem" and started giving me some useful advice.

Want to find out my "problem"?

Ask me.

We went home, played Gears of War on Ricky's new XBOX 360.
It's kind of like Halo, but "better" according to Jacob.

I didn't really like the game.
When we played XBOX Live, I didn't get 1 kill.

I suck at that game, and the players agreed!

We then decided to go and watch Evan Almighty.

It was a pretty cool movie, but what bothered me is that Ricky and Chris wouldn't shut up about how much the movie sucked.

Nobody really cares.

But I liked it.

I wanted to watch Hostel 2 though. =-(

We went back home, and watched American Pie, Naked Mile.

Man, watching that movie makes me want to go out there and kill a midget.

Anyways, Chris and Ricky fell asleep, and I stayed up and watched the whole thing.

It's such a gross movie in the beginning, and Ricky says I look like him.

NO I DON'T!

GEESH!

We woke up, drove the the DMV.

I swear, that is HELL!

We seen the devil too, a black lady with a big mouth.

She was MEAN!

We waited forever and ever.

I think when I die, and go to hell, God is going to send me to the DMV.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

We were finally called up, and the thing took about 5 seconds.

1 hour wait for 5 seconds. It's like a rollercoaster!

We saw this black dude who was wearing a net shirt and hair that looked like "burnt cheetoes" according to Ricky.

Then we left, and they dropped me off.

The End.

This is one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had.

"BODIES... The Exhibition" is a controversial exhibition showcasing preserved human bodies dissected to display bodily systems.


Fetuses and a cigarette smoker's tarred lungs are among the 20 corpses and 260 body parts on display. 

The museum is set up so that one starts at the skeletal system, and more layers (muscular, nervous, circulatory, digestive, respiratory, urinary, and reproductive systems; as well as fetal development and the treated body) are added in successive rooms.

Containing about twenty bodies in total, each exhibition uses real human bodies that have been preserved permanently by a process called "polymer preservation" so that they will not decay.

Some of the specimens are arranged so that they are performing activities such as playing basketball or conducting an orchestra. Along the way are other displays showing a human intestine stretched out, the polluted lung of a smoker, and all of the arteries and veins without the body itself. One section includes several fetuses in various stages of development. All of the fetuses died due to miscarriages.

It was so amazing to see what we're made out of, what we're composed of, and to think that we will NEVER get to see anything inside our bodies, I took this journey for granted.

These things were to awe inspiring, in fact, that for a split second, I re-considered my religion, thinking that something out there must have created this amazing human system. But I threw away the thought a couple seconds later.

The fetus exhibition was so freaking awsome. It was sad, yes, but it was really cool!

They showed 3 babies with some kinds of disiese.

One had a big body with a small head, another with its organs growing outside its body and the last one had a twisted leg.

It was an amazing experience, and you should go too!

Some things I learned over there:


• A human being loses an average of 40 to
100 strands of hair a day.
• A cough releases an explosive charge of
air that moves at speeds up to 60 mph.
• Every time you lick a stamp, you consume
1/10 of a calorie.
• A fetus acquires fingerprints at the age of
three months.
 An average human drinks about 16,000
gallons of water in a lifetime.
• A fingernail or toenail takes about 6
months to grow from base to tip.
• An average human scalp has 100,000 hairs.
• It takes 17 muscles to smile and 43 to frown.
• Babies are born with 300 bones, but by
adulthood we have only 206 in our bodies.
• Beards are the fastest growing hairs on the human body. If the average man never trimmed his beard, it would grow to nearly
30 feet long in his lifetime.
• By age sixty, most people have lost half of their taste buds. By the time you turn 70, your heart will have beat some two-and-a-half billion times (figuring on an average
of 70 beats per minute.)
• Each square inch of human skin consists
of twenty feet of blood vessels.
• Every human spent about half an hour as
a single cell.
• Every square inch of the human body has
an average of 32 million bacteria on it.
• Fingernails grow faster than toenails.
• Humans shed about 600,000 particles of skin every hour - about 1.5 pounds a year. By 70 years of age, an average person will have
lost 105 pounds of skin.
• At rest, a person breathes about 14 to 16 times per minute. After exercise it could
increase to over 60 times per minute.
• New babies at rest breathe between 40 and 50 times per minute. By age five it decreases to around 25 times per minute.
 The total surface area of the alveoli (tiny air
sacs in the lungs) is the size of a tennis court.
• The lungs are the only organ in the body
that can float on water.
• The lungs produce a detergent-like substance which reduces the surface
tension of the fluid lining, allowing air in.
• Your heart is about the same size as your fist.
 An average adult body contains about five
quarts of blood.
• All the blood vessels in the body joined end to end would stretch 62,000 miles or
two and a half times around the earth.
• The heart circulates the body's blood
supply about 1,000 times each day.
• The heart pumps the equivalent of 5,000 to 6,000 quarts of blood each day.

Someday I will get to know my father more.
Someday I will read all of Nicholas Sparks' books.
Someday I will take an early morning walk.
Someday I will  gather up the courage to tell HER.
Someday I will  become president of a club.
Someday I will  hurt someone really bad... for hurting someone/something else.
Someday I will  hunt down a fur trader.
Someday I will  make myself proud... of myself.
Someday I will  meet one of my idols.
Someday I will  stop being mean to my brothers.
Someday I will  contact my 5th and 6th grade teachers.
Someday I will  get a job that I like.
Someday I will   get a car that I like. 
Someday I will  buy and read a poetry book.
Someday I will  realize money isn't everything.
Someday I will  organize a charity event.
Someday I will  make my dad proud.
Someday I will  tell my mom that I love her very much and that even though I'm not like Daniel, innocent, or Joseph, loveable, and even though I'm a freak, and even though I have no life, that I'm sorry for being such a loser.
Someday I will  ask God why he made me... into me.
Someday I will  ask God if he's real, and if so, if he still loves me.
Someday I will  realize that all I need... is happiness.

Love, Anthony.

Someday I'm going to realize that what I have is all I need.

Someday I'm going to realize that doesn't want me.

Someday I'm going to realize that I'm not specail, that I'm just like everyone else.

Someday I'm going to travel to New York City, establish a life of my own, and live a life...
A life without worries, a life without headaches, without war, without the slightest means of depression.

Someday I'm going to run out side on a rainy day and dance like no one is watching, because if I don't, what is there to live for?

Someday I'm going to tell it like it is... to myself.

Someday I'm going to finally decide a future for myself.

Someday I'm going to see my dog, Maxy, again.

Someday I'm going to do something crazy... like crazy crazy.

Someday I'm going to find a beautiful apartment in New York City.

Someday I'm going to make my mom proud of me.

Someday I'm going to make enough money to buy me the things I want.

Someday I'm going to make it big.

Someday I'm going to find the one I love... I think I already have.

Someday I'm going to find a religion.

Someday I'm going to live like no tomorrow.

Someday I'm going to spend the whole night at a Jazz Club, sipping on some Vanilla Fraps.

Someday I'm going to smile... and mean it.

Someday I'm going to read A Child Called It to my mom.

Someday I'm going to tell my grandfather to shut up.

Someday I'm going to lose someone and realize what I have... and all that I need... a family.

Someday I'm going to go to USC... probably not, though, I'm too stupid.

Someday I'm going to finish my AP Euro homework.

Someday I'm going to be on TV.

Someday I'm going to tell Oprah she's gay.

Someday I'm going to find a layout that I like.

Someday I'm going to accept my look.

Someday I'm going to sleep for 24 hours.

Someday I'm going to stay awake for 24 hours.

Someday I'm going to finish this.

Someday I'm going to be happy.

Someday there will be more.

But for now, I'm done and tired.

Next: My trip to BODIES: The Exhibit.

Well, y'all, it's officially one week and one day into summer. In 8, count 'em, 8 days, I'm leaving off to Texas.
YEE HAW!
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
That's not alotta days.
And I still gotta see my gramma, have a slumber party with JAR once more, and I need to go have SUSHI with some people.
*drools*
...*is still drooling*
...*puddle starts to form*...
Anyways, I just seen Hannibal Rising.
Orgasm.
Love the blood and torture.
Mostly blood.
It's so hot. I can't have my AC on because my stupid house is a little crybaby and everytime I turn it on, the power goes off, and then I have to go ALL the way downstairs, restart the power... blah blah blah.

And the new doggy Roxy is really getting on my nerves. As cute as she is, she's one hyper dog. She's a Yorkie.  Cutest little critter, but oh so annoying, hyper, etc. Another one with ADD in our family. Yea, I guess I can handle Joseph, but another one, a dog, bouncing off walls tearing everything up, now that's another story.

Did I mention it's hot? Cuz it is.

I have to get started on AP Euro homework, but I don't wanna.
I DON'T WANNA!

But I have to.
Darn.

FREAK

Do you like it?
Do you not?
Let me know!

I don't deserve her, and she doesn't need me.
We're both single, and really haven't been happy since we've been together, along time ago.
She's been able to move on, I haven't.
So I've come to the conclusion that I should stop counting on the fact that one day, one day,  we will be together again. 
O_o
Who am I kidding?
I only say that so I can THINK that.
I KNOW it's not going to happen.
But she seems happy, and really in the end, that's all that matter.

god...hates...me

This following is a list of my favorite movies, in no particular order.

1. Lion King
2. Hostel series
3. Pirates of the Carribean series
4. Harry Potter series
5. Hannibal series
6. Michael Meyers series
7. Saw series
8. Dracula
9. Van Helsing
10. Edward Scissorhands

TEAR TEAR
Pedro was born, and died on June 3rd 2007. I got him from a pet store so I can have a friend that will love and care for me. I graciously took him to the movie theater, where I calmly wrapped him in my warm shirt. I noticed it was quite cold, and when I unwrapped it, he was stiff and cold. Pedro, your memory isn't lost, and I'll love you forever.

Ms. Salesky, Physical Education, First Period:
She was such a nice teacher, impation at some points in my freshman career, though. She made things fun, and she gave us more time to actually do the activities. To me, she looks like Ellen Degenerous.
But she was really cool and really fair. I had some chances to joke with he. Thanks Ms. Salesky! 
Good: Funny, Playful, Fair
Bad: Impatient

Ms. Loux, H. English, Second Period:
Ms Loux was no doubt a weird teacher. Weird, but really cool! She enjoyed themes such as death, blood, guts, and everything spooky. Of course, I'm also interested in those kind of things. So that made her really cool. The only thing that was wrong with her is that she had "pet peeves" and she let the students run her. If we didn't want to take a test, we would complain until she said we'll do it another time. We'd get away from a test for a week at the most until she remembers that we have to do it. She's funny at times, and sometimes, really freaky with her sudden faces and all. She even admitted once, that she is nuts.  I liked her. Thanks Ms. Loux!
Good: Hardly any homework, and interacts with students.
Bad: Forgets things like crazy, and hard on essays.

Mr. Hind, Latin, Third Period:
Mr. Hind talks funny, dresses funny, looks funny, laughs funny, smiles funny, and has funny hair. He's just a funny kind of guy. And you should know that funny to me sounds weird now. If someone would be talking while he's talking, he would look at them for like 5 minutes, wait until they shut up, then he'd look at the class and make some smart, yet funny, remark. He called me Kind one time. He always drank water when he's sitting down. He had this HUGE water bottle that he would use. It probably weighs more than me... without the water! He told us some funny stories, and some were just plain... weird. Sometimes he would joke, then laugh at his own joke... when no one in the class would laugh. That class was pretty cool because we did absolutely nothing for 2/3 of the class. He didn't really teach, but I got to copy off Eric. There were these girls in the corner who thought they were all cool and stuff, told people to shut up and basically ran that side. They're pretty... pretty dumb. I felt like telling them to STFU. Anyways, he was pretty cool... and funny... Thank you Mr. Hind!
Good: Funny, good stories, and free time in class.
Bad: Mean as hell, and funny... looking.

Mr. Hansen, Drama, Fourth Period. 
Mr. Hansen is funny. Just funny, I'm afraid. At the beginning of the year, he said that he's going to mention a couple of his own catchphrases and he BETTED us that we'll use them by  the end of the year... he was right! I'm not going to tell you any of them, because he makes them funny, so you should talk to him sometime. He was really cool, and funny... haha. I loved Drama, we were always busy. He only got mad at us 1 time, and that was when some weird people kept talking. Jerome, David, and Bryan. DIDN'T LIKE THEM... they are so retarded, and the way they dance makes them seem like they're having a heart attack. I made alot of new friends in that class, including one named BRENDA! She's pretty cool! I had alot of laughs in that class, and really enjoyed it! Thank you Mr. Hansen
Good: Funny, we had things to do, not mean.
Bad: He would hold us in class for how ever many seconds we keep talking when he starts the class.

Mrs. Rowley, H. Science, Fifth Period.
Mrs. Rowley is so sweet. Her daughter Christian, who is a friend of mine, was in that class as well. I sat by her the whole year, which was pretty cool. Mrs. Rowley has such a low voice, and had to use a microphone so we can hear her. Some memories are "Daily Question Please" and "Five minute detention" She's pretty cool. Some classes were absolutely boring when she gave presentations, but some her really fun, with projects and all. A good blend of boring and fun. Mrs. Rowley gave us candy for everything. That was pretty cool too! Haha. Best thing: We got to eat in that class. How awsome is she? Thanks Mrs. Rowley!
Good: Fun at times, gave us candy, and she also fed me!
Bad: Talks low, and sometimes really boring

Mr. Robinson, H. Geometry, Sixth Period, First Semester
Alot of people liked Mr. Robinson. He was an old, cool, smart man who knew alot of things. For fun, he would take SAT tests, which I don't think might be fun at all. He didn't really teach at all, and we would have to learn things on our own. He gave us alot of homework and quizzes, and also very long tests. He would tell us stories by starting off by saying "In the dark ages, we used to..." that was funny... because he's old... get it? His class got way too hard for me, so I dropped to regular geometry. He was cool, though. Thank you Mr. Robinson!
Good: Smart, intelligent, and funny
Bad: Doesn't teach, and very hard tests

Mrs. Edwards, Geometry, Sixth Period
I transferred to her wonderful class after honors geometry got too hard for me. This teacher is oh so nice and oh so sweet! As old as she is, she has alot of energy, and a good sense of humor. Her tests were oh so easy, and I passed her class with B. She was really cool, and she loved her students! Thank you Mrs. Edwards!
Good: Energetic, easy, and loved her students
Bad: Easy content, and I would finish early. Not many bad things...

Overall year review:
I could easily say this year, my first high school year ever, was one of the most stressful, mind bending, and the hardest year I've had so far. I went through one unstable relationship, struggled with many classes, lost and gained new friends, met alot of new people, gained a higher social rank, got a spot as Key Club Vice President, went through many new experiences, learned a whole lot, and I figured out what I want to do with my life, persue a career in filmmaking. After all the blood, sweat, and tears I put into this school year, it was really worth it... it really was. At the beginning of the year, I thought it was going to be a piece of cake... boy was I wrong. It was so hard. Harder than anyone can imagine that hasn't went through the rigorous course that I did. During the school year, I suffered with some self-esteem issues so severe, I basically starved myself. It was ALL worth it in the end though, but I'm just glad its the end. I really appreciated what everyone has done for me, including family, friends, and teachers... I love you all, and thank you!

Class of 2010

See you all next year!

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Well Ya'll, we gots us one more day of school left!

Tomorrow I have Drama and P.E

So it's basically a kick back day tomorrow for sure!

Here are my grade predictions for this semester.

P.E A
English SEE BELOW
Latin A
Drama B
Science B
Geometry B

I think about you everyday and night. When I am with you, you light up my life. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I wish upon a star for you to return back by my side. The love that I hold for you in my soul is greater than an ocean or the sky above.

Please forgive me for all the hurt that I have caused you. Please, I beg of you to forgive me and return back by my side like the way that it was meant to be. I love you, and I always will until the day that I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and you will be the last angel face that I see. I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time, and tell you how much I love you and how much you really mean to me. I love you! 

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me laugh and smile like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so happy. No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you. I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I was so stupid to leave you. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me!

IF ONLY SHE KNEW
IF ONLY...

Ok, so right now, I feel REALLY REALLY stupid.

First, I thought I had some money in my wallet, and just to prove how confident I am in myself, I didn't bother to look in my wallet... so I took off to the stores accross the street from me.

I thought I had at least 5 dollars on me, so I went to the liquor store and got a Monster, 2 Fruit Roll Ups, and a Laffy Taffy... yeah I know, sugar addict...

So I went to the cash register and it came out to be like 4:29 or something.

So I'm like yeah, ok, I have like 70 cents left, so I went to go get me a Starburst...

Then it was like 4.99 and I was like cool...

Then I open up my wallet, and I only see 2 dollars, so I thought Ok, I'll take away the Starburst and Monster (NO!) then I left with 50 cents in change... feeling really dumb.

Then I went to this little Mexican store because I felt like tasting some chile, so I bought something that cost 50 cents...

I grab the change out of my pocket and give it to the man.

He says "HEY!" and I look at him.

He told me it was a quarter and a NICKEL!

WTF?!

So I had to buy something that cost 25 cents, since nothing in this world costs 30 cents...

So I buy a small candy...

I'm furious at my stupidity and throw the money on the table for the man to get, and then I walked out of there.

Then he calls me again "HEY!"

Then I notice I forgot the candy that I bought.

OMG!

*Rushes to get it*

I'm mad walking home, and next thing I know, I trip.

W...T...F? Right?

No, not right...

I get home, eat a fruit roll up, and finish it. 

I get the other one, and walk to the bathroom to throw away the trash...

Then, to feel cool, and quickly unroll the roll up, and it slides into the open toilet...

Ok, who leaves the toilet open?

Then I try to get it, kneeling down. So I can get some balance, I hold on to the upper toilet.


THEN I accidentally flush the goddamn thing.


God how stupid am I?

No wonder no one likes me...

Well, 3 more half days of school left you guys! The last three days left, we have to do finals, and the schedule goes a little like this:

(Not In order)
Mon: 6th 3rd
Tue: 5th 2nd
Wed: 4th 1st
We get out at 12:00 all three days, and Monday is the meeting for AP History (I think it's gonna be AP European History this year?)

Anyways, about my Saturday... 

My and Crystal (my cousin) and my brother Daniel hung out at Borders where I bought 2 books.
The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
and
Dracula by Bram Stoker
YEAUH.
They are bother very orgasmic books and I've begun reading The Notebook already.

Then we went the In-n-Out, where I didn't eat due to the fact that I'm a vegetarian.

We went to Wallmart where I hit on some sexy old ladies.

"You're so hot" I would tell them, "What's your name?"

They would stare at me, in some weird way, and keep walking.

My cousin told an old guy that she needed to fart, and he's like "Well that's your problem"
Crystal replied: "Well it's gonna be a problem when I fart on your leg"
She laughed, and I sorta chuckled.

We bought some stuff at Wallmart which came out to $10.09

In total, the whole day, we spent about $60... but the laughter was worth it.

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by "Aerosmith"

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing